What does it take for you to be happy? What does it take for ME to be happy?
Doing my job right? Having good company? Falling asleep in the arms of the person i love? Being loved?
People say you determine your own happiness. Always been something I've believed in. And yet of late... its getting harder and harder to be 'happy'. Constantly anxious, unsettled and feeling lonely-surely that's not how happiness must feel like?
Nothing much has changed in my life and yet there are a lot of new pieces. So whats the problem? The lack of change or the changes ?
At the risk of sounding like someone who's clinically depressed, i'm gonna go ahead and say that it feels like everything isn't right and there's just a really long, tiring, dark dark tunnel ahead. Same thing day in and day out-same job, same fears, same arguments, same insecurities, same lack of feeling passionate or driven. Wish someone could stop me and tell me whats wrong here or better yet hand me the spanner to tighten the loose nut.
All i want is a week of peaceful palpitation free sleep and serenity. Maybe i need a new hobby? Or to rekindle an old one...
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